It's so hard to process that it's now five years today (Yes! Five whole years!!) since you left for beautiful Heaven 💛 The seconds, minutes, hours and days have flown by, yet, simultaneously, they have dragged and I continue to feel every scrape, wound and knock as time whisks me, face-down, wrists tied, tethered to an unrecognisable creature, galloping through unknown terrain. Destination also unknown but it's alright. Still lost without you, Mum, but through my faith and enduring love for you and this family, I'll willingly take any discomfort in the glorious knowledge that you are free of the lifetime of pain and struggling, and, ultimately, the intense suffering inflicted upon you xxx What I experience is nothing, nothing compared, to yours or anyone else's pain. I know that for sure. I dont know how Heaven works, but I believe you walk with Jesus Christ, with Almighty God Himself, and i can't imagine just how blissful that might be. I'm so proud of you, sweetheart. 💗 I miss seeing you smile, I miss your cuppas! I miss holding you. I miss seeing your natural, loving ways with the babies and the children, and, of course, with W, J-J and V xxx I miss you being the one person who, with one glance, could assure me I wasn't alone in thinking or feeling a certain kind of way within a situation amongst others, where some bull-c%@p had just occurred but attempted at being passed off as 'normal' !! 😉 I miss you for so many selfish reasons, my beautiful angel, but I'd refuse to have you back again if it meant you'd suffer one heartbeat longer. Noooooo!! Mumma, you enjoy everything Heaven has for you and I'll hold on and keep going. This is YOUR TIME, MUM!! KEEP ON PARTYING, KEEP SMILING, KEEP LOVING, KEEP ON BEING YOU!! NO MORE WORLDLY PAIN, HEAVEN IS ALWAYS YOURS, ENDLESS JOY, ETERNALLY YOURS TO GAIN!!! 😊 Lizzie Lewin, I love you, we all miss you and cherish you so, so much 💙💙💙 Beautiful, Wonderful, Irreplaceable You 🌈 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 (what a ramble that was! But I learnt from the best!! 😜)